Hello:
This is the first time I have participated in any kind of online forum. But the bugs have pushed me to it. I seem to be unable to find any sort of support in dealing with the psychological effects of having bedbugs.
I live in a small apartment building. The bugs started two apartments over and have, since April, migrated into mine and the one inbetween. I have had one full treatment and many followup visits by the pest control company. I have become hypervigilant about checking for bugs and blood spots every morning.
Twice now, I have thought that maybe they had been dealt with, and were gone. I have majorly upset my life, moving much stuff to storage to make room for the treatment. I was just getting my life back to normal, on two occasions, when I found, yet again, another live bedbug in my apartment.
The most recent occasion was last night as I prepared for bed. I noticed a small brown piece of fluff on the sleeve of my sleep shirt. Imagine my surprise and dismay when the piece of dust moved of its own volition. It was a juvenile bedbug. Which, of course, means there is a whole new generation of bugs somewhere in my apartment.
At this point, I am feeling depressed, and totally dispirited. I happen to love where I live and I don't want to move. But I have been living with bugs since April. It is not a large infestation, but I find I am practically paralyzed emotionally. The optimism that they might be gone. The despair when I find out they are still here. Not once, but twice now.
Will they ever be eradicated? Is that possible? If they are established in another apartment, will the pest control company ever be able to get them all?
It seems impossible right now to see anything else but bedbugs. But I must admit, talking / typing this has helped, a bit.